I had an incredible weekend. The STUDIO’s first community art event went off without a hitch and we had about 100 people interact with us during the project. We broke 1,000 people on Facebook and have had an increased number of people actually interacting with us. I also started a new research fellowship for my graduate school and have made progress in my art.
Weekend’s like this get me on a natural high. Everything is wonderful and one thing after another falls into place until you grin and glow enough to be a lightbulb. All you want to do is spread some of the warmth you feel to the people around you in the hopes that they’ll get to experience it as well.
The problem with natural highs is that they end. Then you return to an everyday life. Nothing about it is particularly bad, it’s just the one foot in front of the other kid of life that gets you through life. But compared to a time when everything in your life lines up, coming back to reality is a bit of a let down.
I get natural highs all the time. I get lost in ideas, letting them take over my life as I simply swim along in the blissful tide. It’s hard to keep myself from living only for these moments. See, they don’t happen all the time, and I don’t want to wish my life away just because for the moment I only feel regular. For the greater part of this week I’ve been fighting this battle as I slowly come down off of whatever stroke of fate gave me such a great weekend.
I’ve had a few minutes where I just want it to pass, want the ideas to come rushing back to me, but for the most part I’ve coached myself into being comfortable with relaxation. Because ideas are draining, utterly exhausting, and sometimes its nice to embrace the time where they let me just relax. For a little while at least.