I’ve been floundering a bit recently. Summer is always hard for me, despite the beautiful weather. It comes with strange schedules, odd spans of free time, and a reevaluation of what I’m doing.
When I was in college, summer was particularly dreary. I would leave the world was building for myself down in Virginia amongst artists, thinkers, and deep friends and return to the world I had run from where even my old friends insisted that I wasn’t going to real college. I also often had very little to do, so I spent all my time volunteering, working, and making up things to fill my time.
This summer has been different. I’ve had a lot of responsibilities piling up through work, school, my apartment, and the various people in my life. All of this has also been happening on no specific schedule so I never know quite what my life is going to look like tomorrow or next week. All in all, June and July have been pretty stressful.
Now that August is here I’ve left one of my part-time jobs and school is quieting down so my free time has been greatly increased. But now, instead of stressing about where I’m supposed to be when, I’m stressing about whether I’m going to have enough money to cover my life with only one job that is quieting down towards the end of the summer.habi]]]
Rather than lose myself in stress circles, I’ve decided that August is Art Month. I will make myself actually enjoy and appreciate the free time I have to gather my sanity through making sure that I do at least fifteen minutes of some form of art every day. Although I may end up dipping into my small savings to cover this months expenses, theres little I can do if my job doesn’t have school groups for me to teach so I might as well make the most of it.
And so far I’m happy to say I have! Here’s to hoping that my goal during Art Month becomes a habit that I can keep throughout the rest of the year.